When I began this blog I had a few people in mind I wanted to add to it. I added them, some have disappeared (Dan :() and some have just gotten involved in life a bit more then we were at those moments when posting to our blogs was keeping our souls fed and nurtured when the outside world couldnt. But one thing we all have in common here is this.
Az, Kuan, Cat and myself, we have all had some serious struggles, some ugly moments, some horribly tragic circumstances that could have made us prematurely OLD. Things that could have made us like those bitter people we eye from time to time while promising ourselves we wont be those people no matter what happens to us, through us, or because of us. Ive fallen back on every one of you at some point in the last few years, in Cats case for the last 2 decades. And the one thing that makes it truely amazing is that not only do we not jump in the pity party pool with each other, but we actually lift each other up.
I remember laying on the couch at my fathers house 2 years ago now, wondering what the fuck was wrong with me, wondering how I could straighten out what was broken in me, when I reached over, still laying down and opened my blog. And I seen a post from Az that made me tear up and smile at the same time. I immediately got up and ended my pity party and went right out to kick lifes ass some more.
I remember the first time I talked to Kuan on the phone and it was as if I was talking to someone I had known ALL of my life. No hesitation, no uncomfortable silences. Souls renewing friendships never do feel that way :)
And I really cant begin to describe the place that Cat has had in my life. It would take hours, but she knows and I know that no matter what happens or where we go, we will always drift together again. It keeps us lifted up. I know for a fact it does.
